Is there
anything too large, too impossible, too challenging for the most High? Isn't He
the One who made the waters flow, who made the mountains as high as the sky, who made
the trees, grass and flowers. Who made nature so beautiful and liberating. He
who made me from
head to toes, He who breathed His air into me so I could have life.
Life
sometimes doesn't always turn out to be as we have planned. It has many surprises, some good and some bad. It can take
us through some difficult places, some painful, some shameful, some beautiful
but some unbearable too. It can take everything we have away from us, it can take
our happiness in one second. It can give us failure, success, wealth, poverty,
health, sickness, love, loneliness and much more. Many times we quite do not understand
why we have to have the good with the bad, it seems so unfair.. ''Why is it
happening to me?'' We mostly wonder during stressful and hard times. Some tend to
blame God during these moments of distress, out of anger, unawareness, or pain.
But seem to forget Him in times of joy, or happiness, or just when everything
isn't good but not necessarily bad either. These are not just the
non-believers, I myself caught myself doing the exact same thing several times,
when things just got too much for me.
Life has
brought me to so many places I'd rather not been, I'd rather not seen, I'd
rather not experienced (yet). It has torn me apart, made me angry, mad, not in
peace with myself, content but not happy, but has made me laugh, made me loved by so many
people, strong, humble, a fighter, a believer and hopeful aswell. Grew up in a broken
household, with a sick mom, no dad, with a much older brother, a family on
the other side of the world, felt confused, ugly, fat, not loved, made me
search love everywhere but couldn't find the love I needed.
''I don't
belong in this world'' were the words that caught my heart every time, ''no one
will miss me anyway.'' I was very loved by my mom, brother and family who came
here over the years, don't get me wrong. But I just couldn’t feel/accept it,
because I felt I needed the love of a whole famil, I thought my dad didn't love me and just wanted him to be
there, to take care of mom, and my brother and me.
I wanted
out, but God had different plans with my life, He enwrapped me with His majesty,
with His caring touch and draw me close to Him. Into His arms of eternal love
and let me know I was loved, I díd matter, I was important to Him and showed me
that I was important to the people around me. He revealed their love towards
me, His love towards me, He made me conscious of my blessings, of my opportunities,
that my dreams weren't ridiculous, weren't impossible. That day I saw the Lord,
He took me to that place, that secret place where I could be with Him, where
peace took over all the fears, brokenness, anger, failures and disappointments
of the world.
I just want
to say, I know all will be alright it doesn't matter where you stand in life,
how much you have messed up, it is never too late for the most High while you are still alive. You are forgiven before you even know you have been forgiven. Life
can knock you down, chew you up and spit you out just like that, people can disappoint,
love can fail but God never EVER does! He remains constant, like the river
flow, He'll remain standing just like the unmovable mountain, He'll bring
liberation just like running through a field and laying down in its green fresh
grass. We can always have that one moment, that turning point, where all of our mistakes, our disobedience doesn't matter and is forgiven.
And in His
presence all I can do is fall down on my knees and cry, because His presence is
amazing and even now, I have been wrong, I have run away, turned my back
against Him, but I came back, because ''living'' in this world isn't worth
living if I have to do it without Him. The void I felt inside is not what He
has in store for me.
He founds
me special, has plans for my life, has made way for me, will take me to
different beautiful places, loves me unconditionally, holds me together. He Who
holds the world together, founds me special, founds us all special! You, me,
everyone, It doesn't matter what has happened in the past, it doesn't matter
what will happen in the future, He was, is and always will be the same
forgiving, loving, caring God!
Don't run
away now and miss your blessings, but
embrace them as He wants to embrace you, you do matter, you are important!
