december 2012.
So I was talking to the bestfriend in Spain and of course it started out as usual, joking, pranking, laughing, that kind of stuff, to be followed by the - ''hardknocklife'' - things we've been going through lately. Eventually it got real and she encouraged me once again and for that I'm so utterly grateful. It's most important to have people around you whom you can laugh and cry with of course, but most the most important thing is to have people around you who build you up. So you can become better, stronger and eventually the (wo)man after God's heart. And grateful to God, I have those people by my side and I know they won't be scared to tell me the -sometimes harshful -truth. It's the harshness we need at some point to break through that what is stopping you to press on.
But to continue, she encouraged me and she told me to watch a service called ''Believing beyond the testing.'' So I did and I have to say WOW! The pastor described every little thing I have been dealing with lately, but most imortant confronted me with it. I have been that sorta girl that wants it all but when it comes to cutting the ropes, backs off.. I have been walking around knowing that I will serve my God through the darkest pit. But when my faith was being tested, I let fear consume me and think God could not help me with this matter, that I tended to let go of that understanding. Or telling the Lord I will always trust His judgement but when certain things happen ask Him why..
God allows tests in your life so that you can discover who you're mirrored of. Your faith will be manifested by the test you encounter for your faith is only as strong as the test it overcomes. Every confession you make -whether it is to trust God in everything, or to never forsake Him- always requires a matter of proving. The test is not the most important thing though, it is the faith in choosing how you'll handle that test and how you'll come out of it. He will not allow you to be tested beyond that you can bear, you can tell how highly God thinks of you by the tests He allows you to face. For than He believes you can handle that test.
Second, you must allow God to be God and not question His every move and not decide how you think it needs to be done or when. There are things only God knows and only He can comprehend so sometimes we need to know our limits and surrender our lack of understanding to God's magnificence.
Keep going in all you do, quit doubting and keep on relying on God and God alone. The devil is not going to stop someone who isn't going anywhere, if you don't want to be tested greatly keep on doing the little things or do nothing. When you get through this, you will have a testimony to share and strengthen others with, for on the other side of your test lies your greatest victory.
Hebrews 11:1 ''Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually happen; it gives us assurance about things we can not see.''
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