A Dutch post, but an encouraging one!

Hoe vaak heb ik mensen bemoedigd? Hun woorden van hoop gegeven, woorden van leven, woorden die men deed veranderen.. Het is veel makkelijker die woorden uit te spreken wanneer je, je niet in die moeilijke periode bevindt, maar veel moeilijker die woorden dicht bij je hart te houden en aan te houden wanneer je echt in moeilijkheden zit. Ik zat na te denken over de woorden die ik mijn vriendinnen Chanterly (http://truewordscgl.blogspot.com/) en Nina (http://ninawesome.blogspot.com/) een paar jaar geleden heb verteld toen zij het schooljaar niet gehaald hadden. Die woorden leken toen veel makkelijker te zeggen omdat ik dat aspect nooit had meegemaakt. Ik was altijd zo iemand die ging huilen (niet letterlijk Nientje) als ik een 9,5 had gehaald inplaats van een 10. Nu word ik zelf gek van die mensen, nu maak ik het namelijk zelf mee en het is veel moeilijker me door mijn eigen woorden te laten troosten en bemoedigen dan gedacht. 

Mijn punt is soms gaan we door beproevingen waar we echt niet denken uit te komen, waar we echt denken: ''goede God wat kunt U nou daadwerkelijk doen om mij hier uit te halen..?'' Maar in die tijden moet je Hem juist gaan zoeken want hij WEET een betere uitweg, want Hij KAN jou er uit halen ook al lijkt het niet zo op dat desbetreffende moment.

Als je anderen kunt bemoedigen in tijden van nood, stress, pijn, verdriet, etc. Dan moet je jezelf ook kunnen bemoedigen wanneer jij door dezelfde problemen gaat. Vaak denken we dat we nooit in die positie zullen belanden, maar vertrouw me maar het leven heeft verschillende beproevingen voor ons. Het is aan ons om te bepalen hoe we die aan gaan!

Job 4:3-7

''Velen stond je bij met raad en daad en wie de moed ontzonk, heb je gesterkt. Je woorden richtten hem die struikelde weer op, aan knikkende knieën gaf je nieuwe kracht. Maar nu word jij beproefd en je verliest de moed, nu treft jou het onheil, en je geeft het op. Vertrouw je niet op je ontzag voor God, geeft je onbesproken levenswandel je geen hoop? Ken jij onschuldigen die Hij te gronde richtte? Werden rechtschapenen ooit in het ongeluk gestort?''

Laat jouw beproeving je niet stuk maken, sta er boven. Want weet dat God zich boven onze problemen bevindt, durf ze over te dragen aan Hem en geef Hem daartoe ook de ruimte. Soms lijkt Hij in onze nood zo ver weg, nog verder weg dan normaal.. maar Hij hoort elke kreet. Hij hoort je en werkt al achter de schermen voor ons, de Geest Zelf echter pleit voor ons met onuitsprekelijke verzuchtingen.

Maak je geen zorgen, vind rust en vrede zelfs in al je teleurstellingen. Dank God zelfs dan, meer zelfs! Laat Hem zien in hoeverre je Hem vertrouwt, Hij zal je ervoor zegenen nog meer dan Hij dat in de eerste instantie al wilde doen!

God bless, nothin' but love. <333

I may look like a loser to you, but trust me imma winner all the way. 5 feet tall, im called kinda small, fierce & have a winner attitude, imma BOSS!

#%@&!! I FAILED.

yess, that was going through my mind when I got that phone call from my mentor. the three words you just DONT want to hear when ure waiting for the call of ur test results; ''bad news girl.'' At that moment I just wanted to bash someones head against te wall ( I know not very Christian like, but I'm being honest here), I wanted to throw a rock against my mirror, I wanted to scream so loud the windows would break. But I knew all of that wouldnt change the fact that i didnt pass my exams. What was going through my mind was ''shit.. vero shittt, another year filled w/ the same hard work?'' Felt real stupid, as the ground beneath me disapeared and I was falling and falling but didnt hit rock bottom. That was how important this was to me, every second of every day i was studying this year (okay im REALLY exaggerating, but it came real close).

I mean I wasnt expecting anything or something ( okay thats not true), but I certainly wasnt expecting to fail!! When I was done studying I was like yeahh im gonna nail that test I'm so prepared how hard can it be right, bring it on stupid finals! And then after every test I was like %$@#!!!  how is this possible? But ofcourse you dont assume it went that bad you'd fail right, I mean the grades I took with me werent all to great from what is usually expected from me but hey they were okay.. And maybe, just maybe it didnt go so bad. 

UHHHH, WRONG it went WORSE!!

So i was like, okay vero what went wrong? And deep inside i knew but i didnt want to face it ofcourse. And besides that God revealed it to me before i got the call, He showed me the answer to my prayers when I was reading the Bible. But i didnt want to hear anything about it. But after I got that call, i went back to the pages I was supposed to read. And there it was, the answer to what i have been doing wrong this whole school year. I was so caught up in my school work that I forgot the most important thing in the world, actually I didnt forget but i placed Him second. And that was God Himself. Dont get me wrong God is my life and I've always worshiped and praised Him in all I did. But when it came to school, that was way more  ''important'' to me than God. I placed God in the same box as I did school responsibilities. My fire for God decreased, my passion to praise Him every day. 

Never did I spend that much time into God as I have in school, never have I given prayer the priority instead of studying. When I think of all the church events, weddings, birthdays, get togethers I missed this year for nothing actually. I forgot the principal; ''God first and the rest will follow'' I changed it into; ''School first and the rest will follow.'' I knew i didnt even have the right to be angry because i handled it all wrongly. And I know now that everything happens for a reason this isnt some kind of punishment from God or something. This is just a lesson that I had to learn and I know that if I had passed I wouldnt learn it and would do the exact same thing next school year. He is giving me an oppertunity to do better, to do it differently and to get better grades. And another reason this gives me the oppertunity to think over this medical school again, because someone pointed out that she saw me doing well in law school. Hmm, we never know what God has in store for me. But I do know that this Has drawn me closer to Him in every kind of way. This has taught me that I really cant do anything by own strength and own wisdom. I am nothing if it isnt for The most high, how smart I may be, how gifted I am it means nothing if I dont have God in my life, and if I dont put Him first.  This has proven that we utterly depend on the Lord only!

Romans 8:28

''And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love Him, to those who are called according to His purpose.''

I just want this to be an encouragement for you, if you are going through some hard times, dont depend on your human strength. Because are sight is limited, but His sight is beyond our horizon. His ways are beyond our ways, you can speak words you never thought you'd speak, doors can be opened which were closed for you before. In times of stress dont ask where is this God of Israel.. Focus your sight towards Him and He will give you your hearts desires, I know I will succeed next year and all the years to come.

nothin' but love. <333

It is written ''You shall worship the Lord God and serve Him only.''

Luke 3:16

John answered and said to them all, '' As for me, I baptize you with water; but One mightier than I is coming. Whose sandal strap I'm not worthy to loose. He will baptize you with the Holy Spirit and fire.

Let's keep this day in honouring, the day of our all consuming fire, the one who baptizes us. Repent from your sins necause God is the only One who can forgive and clean your inner self. The dirt most people around you, sometimes even friends dont want to look at, or even want to know about. But don't be afraid to tell God because He already knows and loves you anyway. He can take all the shame, pain, dirt, - all the things you dont even want to talk about anymore - away. He'll let you start all fresh, whiter than snow.. He can baptize you not only with water, but with the Holy Spirit. He can make great leaders from the so called ''nobody's'', He can make preachers out of the mute and He can use you to go out into the world, to tell your story to safe others who were once just like you.

Let's keep this day in honouring, the day the Holy Spirit came among people and used them to spread the vivid word of God in different languages, with fire, and most of all life changing.

Thank You dear God, for loving me first before i had the choice of loving You. Dont forget God loves you no matter what! 

<3.

Everybody needs inspiration, everybody needs a song, a beautiful melody so the road won't seem too long.

So summerbreak has finally arrived for me, YAAAAYY!!

Okay it has been here for over a week or so, but what the heck haha.. gosh im so nervous for the results, it was so difficult... This was one challenge for me, but we'll see. Well as im done im desperately in need of a job, the summer is coming and i need to have money. This is gonna be my longest summer break and i wanna enjoy it to the fullest. Summer 2011, will be one to remember.

s/o 2 bestfriend Chanterly Louis, turning 19 today!! Happy bdaay sweety <3!