''letter to the best mom i could ever wish for.''

i have put this on paper for a while, but didnt know if i should publish it.. but i think it's best to even if it's a real deep piece of me.

this is my letter to my mommy.

Im searching for the words, the right words to tell you what it is im feeling, to tell you what i'm thankful for. We've been through so much, just you and me. We came from a long road w/ our own ups and downs. I think i just want to say thankyou mommy! Thankyou for always being there, thankyou for raising me the way you did, if it weren't for you i wouldn't be the woman i am today. Because you weren't there a lot when we we're younger, we had to go from home to home. It could be scarry sometimes w/ out you, but we managed. It made us stronger too! Sick as you we're  you did the best you could to raise Dieudonné and me. When you we're there you did your best to make sure we had everything we needed, you worked hard so we wouldn't miss out on anything other kids had. You were our mom and dad at the same time and i really respect you for it. I can't imagine raising two kids while struggling w/ your illness, but you did. When i was younger, i always felt so sorry to see you like that and always wanted to take over your pain, to sooth it for you. But i know now this is how God decided it to be. 

Not only provinding us w/ food, you made sure you fed us w/ faith too. You gave me the most precious gift in the world; you introduced me to my Father in heaven. Going to church every saturday and sunday was a must and you didnt make us miss it. I can't imagine walking one day in your shoes, your pain, your tears, your loneliness when dad bailed out on you w/ two kids to raise. But never, ever did you loose hope, faith, your belief. It only grew stronger. And it thaught me that miracles do happen, that God is faithful. It has been my fundament in life, to put God first. Because when i cried out His name to save you, He did. Because the God of Abraham, Isaac and Jacob was faithul then and is faithful now. Thankyou mommy for teaching me the value of prayer. We're two strong girls always helped eachother out when times got bad, during the laughs and the tears. While i was writting it, it kinda made me cry because i've never put this on paper before while thinking back to the past.

But mommy i think the words im searching for are thankyou, iloveyou and you're the best mom i could ever wish for.

my african lady ooh.

Thankyou God for blessing me w/ a mom like her.