Have you ever felt so lost that even breathing hurts? So lost that the thought of fighting the battle didn't seem worthy enough.. So lost, that you're just too tired of trying.
Dreams and hope seem to be far away from here, it feels like I'm drowning in the dissapointment of them. But where did it ever go so wrong? I used to reminisce about my dreams forever! In the summer I would lay down in the grass at night, look up to the sky whilst seeing a heaven so bright; filled with hundreds of stars. Counting each star and writing (in thought) every dream of mine in it.
Deep down I knew most of them wouldn't come true, but ah well dreams will be dreams. I think I was too frightend to face the real world. So are my dissapointments really dissapointments, or did I just held on to something I really needed to let go?!
In fact I couldn't see the real beauty of this world; to feel the wind brease during springtime, or feel the sun touch my skin during summer time, to smell the earth after the rain during fall or to play in the snow during the winter. The little things we forget about in life, because time passes us by when we're too busy with our own things. So upset about how it is a rainy country, this little Holland, while Africans are dwelled in draught. Too lazy to get up for work or school and would rather sleep in, while others dream about waking up early and go to school/work to learn something. How a little kid, in lets say India yearns to run around down the streets instead of working hard for a penny a day.
What I mean to say is; no one said it would be easy, growing up and becoming an independent individual. No one said we wouldnt't face problems or difficult times, no one said life would be great all the time. But we had the chance to be a kid and dream to be the president, or a docter, lawyer, artist etc. and actually follow our dream while many kids didn't/don't. We must complain less, work harder and be the change we want to see in the world. Because change won't come by us sitting around, there are lots of kids who would love to tread places.. but life doesn't work that way.
So you múst follow your dreams and you múst follow your hopes wherever it takes you and conquer your doubts and fears. Believe, go there where the dream takes you. There where your heart longs to be, believe and go where your heart is meant to be. Don't give up, how many times life strikes you down, just get up and try again.
It will be a long journey but you will enjoy the ride, don't forget to relax a little and take the time to hear the birds sing, or smell the flowers blossom, don't forget to take the time to really live.
Godbless, <333.
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