in my weakness.

there have been times that i felt so weak, i felt like the whole world was on top of me. Like i was strugglin' to get up, but something kept on knocking me down and all of a sudden all the strugglin' seemed so useless. Times where i felt like giving up the fight was my only option, regardless of the concequences. The pain it cost, the tears it brought, it just didnt seem worth it all. The feeling that your heart is beating in your throat of fear, the feeling that ur swimmin under water and you keep on sinking instead of catcing ur breath. The struggle of getting back above water, but the water around you is stronger then ur strain.

Why do we have to face these brief moments of weakness?
2 Colossians 12:18 states;
'not more than my mercy is necessary, because strenght will
become visible in weakness'.
- so i would much rather stand on my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ will become visible in me. Because Christ gives me strength, I create joy in my weakness, in insults distress, persecution and misery, in my weakness I am strong. Jesus' crucifixion fits His weakness and now He lives through the power of God.

This brief moments of weakness, show us the true ability of our powerful God. That we truly are nothing without Him, and in those moments dont be afraid to admit you need Him, and call upon His name. Because in ur moment of weakness, you are strong.

So when i feel like sinking, instead of yelling and panicking and feeling like the world is on top of me, i call upon my Lord and all that what seemed to matter really doesnt any more, and imma rise up joined by my God.